Yo-yo Emotions 

Up and down they bounce

Pushed down by bad days 

Left to rise in good ones 

Makes me think of being young

No matter what my face says

I was happy once

I can’t take all the back and forth

I just want to live free

This constant change is too much strain 

Through it all I remain positive 

Even though today’s a low day

One day I’ll be happy again 

At least I know I’m not broken…

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Stay.  Come.

His heart begs her 

Stay with me 

Don’t leave me alone here

I don’t know how to live without you

Her heart pleads

Come with me

Don’t let me go by myself

Into this new world without you

One has to stay behind 

While the only leaves

Only for a while

But it feels like eternity

Broken Eyes

My eyes must be broken

Leaking for so long

Just from a couple thoughts

I don’t want you to go

What am I going to do

Without you 

My eyes are broken 

They already long to see you

All the things about you

That gave them life 

My heart is broken

I feel it 

I know it

I’m going to miss you

Beyond my ability to describe 

Hurry up and come back

Fix my heart 

And my eyes

30 Day Challenge – Day 17

Day 17 – Highs and Lows of the past year

Low – My ex was starting to be distant for no reason. I suspected that she was interested in someone else, but she denied it and said it was work. Put a pin in that.

Low – I was getting evicted for using a hot plate to cook my food. I never got the lease, but apparently it was in there.

Low – I wasn’t going to graduate because I didn’t have enough done to do so.

Low – Could barely afford to pay rent because my work permit expired. My ex paid the full rent and said not to worry about paying her back. Put a pin in that.

Low – Pin 1. Found out my ex was cheating on me from a mutual friend. I went dark that night. I was at the carnival village (it’s like Coney Island) and after I heard the news, I couldn’t stop drinking and laughing. I broke in the bad way. Pin 2. She wanted the money for rent back after it was all over. She isn’t getting a dime.

High – I had a great time at carnival. The best ever. I spent every day with one of my brothers, Khallid. We had a blast. 

High – I got job offers back to back. I had to turn down people to get the job that I have now and another one that was a pilot study.

High – I got over my ex. Completely. Yea, I don’t like what she did, but I have gotten past it. It’s like ever since she left, only good has happened so far. She was what was keeping me back.

High – I fell in love with me. I left people alone and stuck to myself. I started reading to get sway from life. I started watching new shows to keep me busy.

High – Started back up an old friendship. I was spiraling out of control and she saved me. Everything started with a show we both liked at the time. Didn’t know what was coming next.

High – We became an item. I’ve never been so happy and content in my life. I love her.

High – I’m moving away with her to hopefully better opportunities and a better life.

You can’t have lows without highs. Life balances itself out eventually. This too shall pass.