Shut Out

I presented myself

Showed that I belonged

I thought I was already in

But I still find myself

Screaming

Shouting

At glass walls I can’t seem to climb

Looking for the password

That I’ll never find

Open sesame won’t do

I guess I’ll never get through

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Tokyo 

I just need to accept that I’m a monster 

Causing terror 

Stomping around 

Destroying everything that I touch 

That’s what the people below me see

I’m just trying to understand me

So I’m curious about things 

I’m trying to figure it all out 

It’s not my fault that when I sneeze 

Fire comes out my snout

I’m sorry for the calamity 

I’ll head back into the sea 

Serial

Why do some men feel

That it’s ok to break hearts?

Is the craving for control so strong 

That they don’t realize what they’re doing

Is completely wrong?

Breaking down their partners 

To the brink 

Edging on self harm and self hate 

To the point where 

They’re too weak to walk away 

So they stay

Because no one loves them

They’re crazy

They’ll never find anyone else

At least… 

That’s what they’re told

Yo-yo Emotions 

Up and down they bounce

Pushed down by bad days 

Left to rise in good ones 

Makes me think of being young

No matter what my face says

I was happy once

I can’t take all the back and forth

I just want to live free

This constant change is too much strain 

Through it all I remain positive 

Even though today’s a low day

One day I’ll be happy again 

At least I know I’m not broken…

Beat Us To It

They were once like me

Caring and loving and always there

Then they stopped

Leaving you in a place of

Unrequited love and affection

So you had to change the way you did things

Locking it all away to avoid pain

Never wanting to be hurt again

Now with new love in your life

Your expectations are for

A repeat of the past

At least your actions say so

So you’ve already fast forwarded

To the part where you need not show affection

Now I stand here with all the extra

Looking into cold eyes

That feel a pain that I did not inflict