She’s my past past, present and future
When I feel myself fall apart
I trust her to be my suture
Even though currently
She’s far away from me
When I close my eyes
She’s all that I see
A future that I can’t wait for
A life that I forsee
Saying I Do
Then starting forever
So many memories
I can’t wait to remember
A question plagues my mind
If you could change for the worst
To please them
Only for them to walk away
Why can’t you change for the better
For someone that you know will stay?
The answer lies with me though
Because they forced you to be different
From the person that you were
Would never force you
To be anyone who
You didn’t want to
Or couldn’t be
So I will suffer
Until you realize
That you can’t keep blaming the past
You are in control of your actions
You decide whether we crumble
Or whether we will last
We both need to grow
Away from our pasts
If we want our future together
To become something
That we can enjoy
Side by side
When I look at where I came from
And what I went through
To get to you
I’m thankful for all the trials
All the arguments over nothings
I’m glad I learned to love stronger
Each and every time
Because in the end
You get the greatest love
That I would have ever
Been able to give
Day 09 – How you hope your future will be like.
I would like for my future to be one with ease. I want to be financially stable so that I never have to worry. I want to own my own home. I want to take vacations whenever I feel like.
I want my wife by my side through thick and thin. Arguments, surprise dinner dates, date nights, the whole shebang. I want us to be able to fall in love every day as if it were the first time.
I want children running around the house, growing older, then leaving the nest to start their own lives. Eventually they’ll come back with children of their own who want nothing more than to spend time with their grandparents. It would complete the whole family experience.
The future isn’t always clear, but I have faith that it will come close to everything that I wish for here.
Day 02 – Where you’d like to be in 10 years.
In ten years, I’ll be 37. By that time, I would like to own my own home and have at least two cars. I want to be married and be in a state of calm. It has always been my dream to be financially comfortable and that is where I want to be.
I want to be married to my current girlfriend. Still as in love as we are today. I want children. 2 perhaps. A little boy to live out my batman addiction through. From stroller to at least high school, he will think he is batman (as I do to this day). My little girl will be my princess who I won’t be able to say no to enough. We’ll be happy together.
I want a job that I love and not one that I deplore leaving the house to head to every morning. It has to be dynamic and not the same thing every day. I can’t sit behind a desk for the rest of my life.
Overall, I do not want to live the life that my parents did. I don’t want to be living paycheck to paycheck and scramble to get things done each month. I want myself and my family to be happy.
Day 01 – Your current relationship, if single discuss how single life is
To say it simply, my current relationship is amazing.
They say that you have to go through bad to get to what’s waiting out there for you. I have been through alot in my life and I think that with her is where I should be. It’s not perfect, because nothing is, but it’s better than most that I’ve been through. She has been a major inspiration for this blog and my writing.
She makes me happy daily and I love the feeling. I don’t think that I have ever been as content as I am right now. Every moment with her is amazing. We don’t even have to be in the same room to enjoy each other. She makes me laugh by being silly and I do the same for her. There have been moments when we have both driven each other to laughter to the point of tears.
She’s my last thought at night and the first in the morning.
She’s my future. I am happy.
You were always
A breath of fresh air
The flowers around us
To your perfume
I have no choice but to stare
Right at you
Your head on my shoulder
As you look ahead
I look where you’re looking
Hoping you see what I right now
A future with us still together
Laughing and being silly
Starting our family
Growing old side by side
On this crazy ride
That I can’t get enough of
I take another deep breath
Of the fresh air you provide
You keep me alive