Jumbled Anatomy 

I just want to be a shoulder 

Or maybe an ear

Maybe I’m just in the wrong place

Trying to do a job

I’m not seen as fit for 

Fingers can’t be toes 

No matter how hard they try

Who put this mannequin together? 

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Running From a Savior

Day by day I feel you start to slip
I try to tighten my grip…
But it always remains just to loose
Then I realize that you’re fighting
The stranger holding your arm
When I never meant you any harm
In your eyes…
I’m no longer the same…
I try calling your name…
But my voice is an unfamiliar sound
You don’t turn around
I walk away with my head down
What we were is all I ever wanted to be
Now it’s just a memory
You don’t know me…
Not anymore…
I really deplore
The way things are now
I don’t know how
They ever got this way
I thought you would always stay
I hope everything will be alright
I hope I make it through the lonely nights
I hope I don’t shed too many tears
Wishing you were still here
Then I remember
That at the end of my rope
I had almost given up hope
Today…
I let my white horse run away
And I hang up my armor
Because I could no longer save the day
I wish I could go back in time
Back to when you where mine
Back to the time that I…
I felt alive

Trapped. Mind. Body. Spirit.

Life’s no fairy tale
Happy endings are seldom many
Some people have no chance of seeing any
It’s just grim
Especially
For him
Coming from less than nothing
Only to still struggle for everything
Searching for something
Himself

Never feeling like he belongs
Never feeling wrong
His love of numbers
Does not stop this set from evading him
Almost keeping him back with every step
But somehow he manages
To see success though he wishes for greater
Everyone talks of never coming back
When he wouldn’t mind just to leave
He would believe in his future
If only he could see it

The only thing that he knows
Is that the future he has
Is certainly uncertain
Looking into it
Would only leave him more confused
With more unanswered questions
Will there be a roof overhead?
Will he even have a bedto lay his head?
How does he solve the problems he faces?
As he counts his paces
He shakes off the thoughts for now
Lest another being brings them up

Honestly concerned for him
Potential is nothing until it is acted upon
He fears that his potential
Will run its time before long
Time is running out
And
He’s still here
Struggling
Running
Before it’s too late
This is one door that when closed
Has no promise of another opening
And he can’t do a thing

The worst part of it all
Makes him feel so small
How can he stand tall
When he’s lost before the start?
Handicapped
Feeling like a burden
Wishing he could repay
All that was done for him in the past
His tab has run farther than he wished
He wants to see the end of this

If he could choose
Then he would just cruise
Into the sunset
But he still would never forget
Family
Coming back when needed

For now
His body is trapped
Not allowing his mind to grow like he wants
Forcing his spirits to be low
Towards his life
Depression is the feeling that is mostly felt
He tries to calm himself down
By reasoning that these are just the cards
That life and fate have dealt

To You From Me

Girl, I just wanted to let you know
That I respect that you want to take it slow
People told me not to rush
For now let’s be we instead of us

As the days go by, I don’t know how to feel
I sit and ask myself, “Silence, you sure it’s real?”
I mean it doesn’t matter how I spend my time
For some reason, you always cross my mind

One part says these feelings can’t be reciprocated
The other can only say maybe she’s on par
I should know from all I’ve been through
The closer things seem, the further they are

She doesn’t like me for my money
I don’t have a car or bling-bling
That’s cool with me ’cause I’m not after
That thing, that thing, that thi-i-i-ing

I will try to never hurt her
I don’t mean no harm
Sometimes it gets cold
I just want to keep her warm

Confused about reaching out
Never knowing when to start
Weary of where we travel to
Because we both have…

Fragile hearts

Fighting Love ft. Explicit

I just wanna be loved, and for that, I find myself exchanging my heart
for what i thought was your love.
That love that I thought was there, was wearing a disguise;
hidden by the lies I saw in your eyes.

Looking into those eyes brought tears to mine. I keep denying your
faults to think everything was fine.
I misused my heart as you took my love in vain. Now I’m confused, and
emotionally insane.

Going crazy with every thought of you, but now the truth shines through.
The looking glass is clearer now as I see the liar in you.
With you my heart still wants to stay, but my mind knows better and
makes my body walk away.

I just wanna be loved; is that too much to ask?
Since when did love become a task.
A daily routine to complete…check one, check two…
What’s on the agenda today?
“Loving you”…

So easy for me to do, but for you it’s not. ‘Cause when it comes to
loving me, it seems like you forgot.
My love for you is something hard to brake, but by the way it’s
returned it feels like a mistake.

Let Me Out

Get me out of here!

The walls are closing in
The are littered with memories of times gone by
Times when I was down and out
Times when I cried

I can’t breathe!

It’s too much to take
If  I don’t get out soon
I’m afraid I might break
I feel so trapped
The last time I was here
I almost snapped

I bang against the walls
Looking for a way out
No one can hear me
No matter how loud I shout

Get me out of here!

Stop the noise!

I hear the voice of my younger self
Crying…
Wailing…
I cover my ears
But I can’t stop the noise
The voices are all around me
They are ready and poised

“Useless” “Worthless”

Shut up!

“Remember when they left you?”

Yes!

“You were never good enough.”

I try to fight them off but it’s tough
I have been thrown into a room
Somebody give me the key
Save me

Somebody

Anybody

Let me out…